Holy Mess, Whole Me

Balancing belief, brokenness, and becoming


About

Hi, I’m so glad you’re here.
I’m a pastor’s wife, a mother, and a woman who is finally learning to see herself again — not just through the lens of who I serve, but who I am.

For years, I believed that holiness meant holding it all together. I wore the roles I’d been handed like a second skin: the encourager, the caretaker, the prayer warrior, the helper. But somewhere between the diaper bags, the sermons, the expectations, and the quiet nights of loneliness… I began to feel invisible.

I kept showing up — for everyone but me.

And while the world saw faithfulness, I felt like I was unraveling inside.


Why This Space Exists

Holy Mess, Whole Me was born out of that unraveling.
It’s not a place for polished devotionals or picture-perfect advice. It’s a space for real women, like you and me, who are doing their best to balance belief, brokenness, and becoming.

Here, I talk about:

  • Marriage that’s beautiful and hard
  • Motherhood that fills and empties me in the same breath
  • Ministry life that can feel both sacred and lonely
  • Healing that isn’t linear
  • Self-love that I’m still learning to accept

This isn’t about having all the answers — it’s about telling the truth while we search for them. It’s about choosing to believe that our mess is still holy and that we don’t have to be whole to be worthy.


A Few Things About Me

  • I’m deeply in love with Jesus — even on the days I doubt everything else.
  • I’m a wife who’s walked through hard seasons and stayed.
  • I’m a mom who’s constantly in awe of the amazing humans I have the privlige to raise and launch into adulthood
  • I’m a woman who’s learning that my needs are not a burden.
  • And I believe with my whole heart that healing is possible — even here, even now.

Let’s Walk This Out Together

Whether you’re here because you’re hurting, healing, or just tired of pretending, you are welcome. You are seen. You are not alone.

Thank you for showing up.
Let’s become whole — even in the mess.

With grace,
Elizabeth