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New Year, Same Me…Probably
Happy New Year. Another year of deciding I’m going to write consistently, grow this little space on the internet, and then failing miserably. Well, Ok..I didn’t fail miserably because I mean I did share some stuff throughout the year last year but consistent I was not. Because you know what, life happened. As it does…As Continue reading
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My Sunday Evening Reset for the New Week
One big thing I have been working with my therapist on is finding margin in my life. So lately I have been intentional about how I go about managing my time. Therefore, Sunday in our family is for church and rest. It’s becoming a hythm that keeps us grounded. We spend the morning worshiping together, Continue reading
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Learning to Love Me Again
Somewhere along the way, I stopped loving myself. If I’m being honest it probalby started back in high school when I had a huge shake up in my friend and support group. But the problem is I didn’t notice it at first. It happened quietly, piece by piece, as life got busy, heavy, and overwhelming. Continue reading
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Finding Forgiveness When It Feels Impossible
Yesterday during the memorial for Charlie Kirk, America watched in awe as Erika Kirk stood before the world and publicly forgave the man who murdered her husband. Her words didn’t dismiss the pain, and they didn’t make light of the loss. Instead, they revealed something deeper: the supernatural strength that forgiveness requires. In my own Continue reading
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A Million Ways to See What the Sun Touches
This week’s post is a bit shorter than usual, but it is something that really got me to thinking pretty deeply, so I’m excited to share my thoughts. We’ve all heard the old saying: “There is nothing new under the sun.” Sometimes it’s quoted as a way of shutting down creativity or reminding us that Continue reading
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The Dangers of Indifference in Relationships
Life and relationships are rarely simple. A couple weeks ago I wrote about how apologizing and taking ownership of actions can help move move toward reconciliation. I truly began to feel like maybe we were getting back on the right track. And then another encounter distroyed all hope of that feeling taking root. I was Continue reading
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3 Ways to Find Peace When Life Feels Overwhelming
Can I tell you a secret? The past week has got me feeling like life can feel like too much sometimes—between family and all our activities, the church, and the weight of figuring out what we are going to do next, it’s easy to feel stretched thin. If I’m honest, I’m the type of person Continue reading
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When the Dust Settles
It’s been a week since our world was shaken up. 7 days. It has felt like no time and a life time all the same. And as the dust has settled and we have begun to figure out what life looks like for us now I will be the first to admit this: I am Continue reading
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Moving Toward Reconciliation
When I shared our story recently, I wrote from a place of deep grief and confusion. The hurt of watching my husband be asked to resign was raw and overwhelming. In that pain, I poured out what was heavy on my heart. And while this did take place after he admitted his ongoing struggles with Continue reading
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Are We Still Welcome Here?
Yesterday I shared that my husband was asked to resign from his position as Associational Mission Strategist (AMS) at the Mountain Valley Baptist Association (MVBA). This is a position he had held for nearly four years. During that time there was new life breathed into the association of 20+ churches. The finances were better than Continue reading
About Me
I’m a pastor’s wife, mother, and woman on a healing journey—learning to love myself again after years of losing my voice in the roles I was expected to fill. Holy Mess, Whole Me is a space where I share the raw, unfiltered truth about balancing belief, brokenness, and becoming. Here, I write honestly about the struggles of marriage, the sacred chaos of motherhood, the weight of ministry life, and the slow, grace-filled work of finding wholeness in the middle of the mess.
Holy Mess, Whole Me 